mind benders

amazed by how much crap just comes up of its own volition, i'm moving around doing and the story keeps growing. i see pieces of the past being added and the whole thing coloring a wicked picture of the future. i realize very suddenly, really so abruptly, wow it's just about the time i've schedule to sit this morning. i feel an incredible physical resistance with my whole body, like tie me to a tree, give me some mind numbing activity, get me outa here now, anything to keep me from sitting with it. man, the little me is one strong little bully, i just can't seem to let go. ok, here's the cushion, and i tell myself that is the point, sit with it.